Incineration (Burning Butterflies)

In this story apathy plays the part of younger me terribly concerned that she will never love him

in this story misery plays the part of older me terrible and spastic cus she had never loved him

delicate and softly touched never in love but she cared so much about him but he never gave her anything she wanted elegantly she debates delegates what she fucking hates about him but he loves her and she’s claiming she’s the victim oh dear God I, I can’t lie confessions will be made so the sinners are saved oh dear God I, I can’t lie confessions will be made sleeping two in the grave

Liar, liar set yourself on fire never let it go now never let me go liar, liar butterflies on fire never let it go now never let it Guilty when you take these hands shaking so much do you understand everything you wanted is the same as I can’t compromise guilty as I take this breath knowing damn well that nothing’s left kill me with your voodoo all that stupid shit that you do let it let it rain let me reclaim I love you so much but it’s just not the same let it let it rain let me reclaim I love you so much but it’s just not the same

Promise Me a Rainbow

Mother agreed that this life isn’t for me she said to move away go away do as I say not as I do setting my sail I found myself on a trail I think I’m all alone so alone waiting for my life to come back to me on a vacation with no motivation, accountable for everything Sleep so quietly I’ve been dialing heaven for years God doesn’t hear sleep so quietly I’ve been dialing anyone I know that will promise me a rainbow Father would say that we would have our bad days before we run away go away do as I say not as I do setting his sail he found an ocean of nails I think he’s all alone so alone waiting for his life to come back to him on a vacation with no destination, accountable for everything

Acetylene & Sedatives

Welcome to the carnival of love entry fees are paid in blood I’ll risk slit wrists to make this some are days some are nights some in black some in white some are really angels glued together from the doll parts wedding bells sing you still don’t have a ring god forbid you ever get what you deserve dressed up playing the part of every mannequin heart I know you’ll dive in I know you’ll ruin… me me me Take take my love take take my name take take my feelings out the window down the drain take take my hand take take my soul take take everything I won’t need it anymore Welcome to the requiem of words every sentence gets a hearse I’ll risk slit wrists to make this some are dead some alive some are truth some are lies some are really demons in my head below the halo wedding bells crash they’re burning to an ash god forbid I ever get what I deserve dressed up playing the part of every mannequin heart I think I’ll dive in I know I’ll ruin… you you you Somewhere deep down in your heart there’s a fire that sparks and I’m waiting waiting here alone alone alone forever and ever

Lullaby’s With Restless Intentions

Death by love at the crime scene sixteen candles are lit in a row maybe it’s coincidence an accidental innocent it’s buried in these hands that you hold cold private dicks and FBI this don’t look like suicide the entry wound is tainted by the fragments of his shirt call the morgue and CSI I think this might be homicide judging the trajectory that’s angled from his gun oh burning every feeling down dark and dreary oh burning every down My dear God in heaven I pray we aren’t gathered today to mourn the loss of someone we love my dear God in heaven I stray I’ve turned my faith away and now I’m lost dieing for love Deputies and clergy men the killer strikes us yet again the pieces of this puzzle must have vanished with the clues call the feds and CIA I think this might be foul play finger print the weapon clean the blood that’s on your shoes Maybe we’re the killers in the mirror when the sun and stars appear don’t make don’t break the secret maybe we’re the victims of ourselves with these feelings that we felt don’t make don’t break the secret

Upside Down Cross My Heart

My mistakes are typical impervious they are corner me with fire and I’ll leave you with my scars Coming around just like clockwork your smirk cuts inside to terrorize every inch of me learning the way from the teachers preachers holy water drowning and I’m sinking down below do, do you understand? Why I turn and ran where? Where I want to be, somewhere in love coming around just like clockwork your smirk cuts inside to terrorize every inch of me Let go reluctantly you’re killing me you promised me your honesty so where the hell could it be? Let go reluctantly you’re history I’ve promised you a million times but now I mean it truthfully My mistakes are everyday impervious they are corner me with fire and I’ll leave your feelings charred Coming around just like a freight train my brain spins itself in circles just to vomit up these words one of these days I swear I’ll wake up so fucked lost my only lover to addiction I’m a fraud do, do you want me here? Dry, dry those rolling tears down your face and off your cheek straight to the floor coming around just like a freight train my brain spins itself in circles just to vomit up these words

Susquehanna Anthem: Filth Found a Home

Back I’m back with a brand new goal still taking more shit than a toilet bowl and I feel more dead then a customer at Hennessey’s sipping on Genesee Susquehanna recipe hey there pretty lady I think you should know that boy you love is really just an asshole-asshole hey there all my fellas I think you should know that girl you use is really just a hassle-hassle got to make a checklist no I’m not reckless scattered like ants looking for the exit pass me the mic check-check, check it out wipe the grin from your face and that shit off your mouth hey there people I think you should know I really think you’re all a bunch of assholes-assholes Opened up a garden of filth the dirt is perfectly built and you’re the mayor babe so throw your shit parade opened up a kingdom of trash a town that needed a match if you’re the gases then we’re the matches Back I’m back and I’m bringing the sack like opposing teams on our varsity quarterback no-one really cares so we play for the pain and the thought of getting fucked up after the game drinking down the bottles sipping on Bacardi getting fucked up at the post-game party got to find a new world got to get a new job it’s hard to open up a town without doorknobs got to get the grades up don’t you be a dumb fuck another candidate for jumping off the viaduct drinking down the fire vomit up the passion suicidal thoughts really spark a reaction Mr. Hennessey you’ve got to see this to believe yes your productivity is off the charts from misery let me say just fuck it all, fuck that fuck that baby you’re killing me with all of your dirt

Transparency

Close your eyes give it a try you never even knew never knew that I was alive you’re looking right through me you’re looking right through open your eyes give it a try you wouldn’t even care wouldn’t care if I’m dead or alive you’re looking right through me you’re looking right through my mistake sweetie no attention should be paid you were there by my side while you were digging my grave six feet down and below you never know one of these days I’ll crawl up out of this hole sick with patience done with virtue swear to God I’ll never hurt you listen to me when I say please believe please believe Save my heart by a rope that you string along until I’m dead and gone and then you’ll carry on save my heart by the rope that you tied me to you’re looking right through but I can see you Evidence that I’ll believe I’m leaving how could you do this to me? No reason holding tight I’m losing grip and you’re falling down skeletons and pumpkins this is Halloween like every single day that I’m willing to breathe hearts are broken words unspoken kill me killing me

Dead to Me Now

How much wood could girlfriend fuck if your girlfriend did fuck wood well I got to get good got to get better than this pretend you don’t exist taking my time still ticking like a time bomb keeping my cool while she’s looking for her lip balm all her glossy secrets are like gases on flames puckered her lips now looking like a goldfish rubbing my lamp still looking for her last wish maybe you’re as ignorant as everyone says you don’t got to go to the pool to get wet I bet five minutes alone I’ll make you sweat rolling down your body naughty you caught me up in this game up in this game You’re dead to me now I thought I loved you some how but you were crawling like a parasite always fucking up my life dead to me now loved you some how but you were crawling like a parasite always fucking up my life how much wood could your girlfriend if your girlfriend was your girlfriend… Boo fucking who when you cry like that and your heart’s gone flat still pinned to the mat get that weak shit out of my face out of this place oh Jesus slip-slip slide and we dip-dip dive any number mother fucker never to survive calling you up from the hospital bed and I think I bumped my head you don’t got to go to the morgue to get dead I said five minutes alone will turn to dread crawling through your body the maggots never caught me up in this game up in this game

Romanticism and the Art of Sarcasm

What if you had never said my name? what if we had never met would it be the same? what if I had never caught your eye? Never took the chance just let me pass you by urgently deducting the thought it’s like I want to be caught framed by the innocence but I’m not innocent suddenly when sudden is heard she makes a noose from the words oh darling hang on until it’s all gone sleep-deep living a nightmare I don’t belong here I don’t belong here quietly detecting the lies your heart is screaming inside framed by the innocence but you’re not innocent bleeding out the truth will be heard she makes a noose from the words oh darling hang on I swear it’s all gone sleep-deep living a nightmare I don’t belong here I don’t belong here 1-2-3-4 Open fire snakes and spiders crawling through my body it’s oblivious you got me my desire feeds these liars awful and disgusting crack me open then you’ll gut me

Patience On Standby

Boring you to death with these words she left to flip me the bird I’ll rip your wings off I’ll tear your wings off starving for the feelings I felt she said to go fuck myself I’ll get myself off I got myself off Wondering and waiting around I dug a hole in the ground and kicked my shoes off to get more comfortable loaded up on vicodin they’re looking for my next of kin cus I don’t think I’ll make it and my world is turning gray topped it off with percaset to catch my pain like safety nets inside a hurtful bubble and I’m really not okay famous for my famous last words it’s a beautiful curse and I’m not patient cus I’m the patient famous for my tearful goodbyes it’s like when someone has died and I’m not patient no fucking patience oh your perfume and your bedroom I’ll miss you so much I’ll miss you Didn’t quite feel the same sleeping with our memories I hope you don’t think less of me take the thought out of my brain and I’ll crawl home when I’m good and ready to Scaring you to life with the thought I sold the soul that I bought I’ll rip your heart out I’ll tear your heart out backed into a corner less wall I guess I’m willing to fall I’ll pick myself up I picked myself up Once and only before I ever knew I’d adore a selfish victim a drowning liar loaded uo on demorol and razors in a bathroom stall and I don’t think I’ll make it cus my world is turning gray topped it off with all the booze my favorite weapon that I’ll choose stuck inside a bubble til we squeeze out all the pain

Anathema

Stressed out feelings detained I’m such a glutton for pain and all the promises that were never true blame this on no one but you, you had it all and it’s true I fucking loved you I never meant to openly your feelings are hurt you go and dig up some dirt you’re telling everyone what I’ve did and done maybe I deserve it it’s true I never meant to hurt you is there no courtesy for what we’d call our memories secretly you’re blaming yourself I know you’d rather just melt then give yourself up call in the fire trucks Ten-nine-eight-seven-six-six-six and you’re still not there in my heart ten-nine-eight-seven six-six-six and you still can’t tear me apart Bless my heart on the whole she put a gun to my soul and held it hostage until it rotted through my chest and out of my mouth that’s how the evil crawled out she had me suicidal I swear on dusty bibles taillights leaving the crime had her running on time and there’s no witness I cant believe this sirens flooded the block I went to reach for the glock next to that bible that trigger I pulled through my chest and out of my mouth the bullet finally came out she had me suicidal I swear on dusty bibles secretly you’re blaming yourself I know you’d rather just melt then give yourself up call in the fire trucks get up my lover get up out of bed another one down another one dead

Celestial (Heaven Has Nothing On You)

She’s a work of art pretty and smart with cool calm tongue and a kissable neck couldn’t tell a lie not even if she tried messy and abrupt like a perfect train wreck you’re all mine my Valentine with lives like cats but we’ve used all nine oh gee whiz there she is and I’m tongue tied I’m always tongue tied hiding on the inside oh you’ve got this funny way what did I say that keeps you so still it’s in your hands now it’s in my heart now and I can feel it beating-beating it’s in your cold stare it’s in my nightmares and I can hear you breathing-breathing Save yourself because tomorrow isn’t here yet nursing off the sunset if you go I want you to know heaven has nothing on you She’s a loaded gun deadly but fun with her tongue cocked back and a kissable neck ready at will and she’ll fire to kill messy and abrupt like a perfect crime scene you’re all mine my Valentine with lives like cats but we’ve used all nine oh gee whiz there she is and I’m tongue tied I’m always tongue tied hiding on the inside oh you’ve got this funny way what did I say that keeps you so still it’s up to fate now so take your last bow I try to be so honest-honest it’s like a death bed for everything we said I guess I’ll learn that you’re honest-honest

Dementia

Calling it a coma calling it a coma calling it a coma nothing but disaster but you bastards never lie nothing but disaster but you bastards never lie let’s wait until the sun burns out pretending that we’re young again Hey we all fall in love we all fall in love we all fall apart you’re breaking my heart